Talks of Holy Mother 13: Recorded by an Anonymous Male Devotee

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13: Recorded by an Anonymous Male Devotee

Some days after he had received initiation from the Holy Mother, there cropped up in Lalmohan’s (Swami Kapileswarananda’s) mind a doubt:

“What have I done? Alas I took initiation from a woman.” This gradually developed into a severe mental anguish. Finally he decided that he would abandon the Mantra unless the Master resolved his mental conflict in a day’s time. The next day Lalmohan, under the instruction of Revered Baburam Maharaj, (Swami Premananda) carried cow’s milk to the Holy Mother’s house at Calcutta. As soon as he stood up after saluting the Holy Mother, she said to him, “Look, I didn’t give you the Mantra it was the Master who gave it.” A few days later, this doubt haunted his mind again. An idea struck him now: “I shall believe that the Master himself has given me initiation, only if Haren Babu comes to announce that he has received power from the Mother.” Some days later, at the time of the Master’s birthday festival, Haren Babu actually came and said, ”Today I have been favoured with a special power from the Holy Mother.” Then only did all his uncertainties vanish.

Once it was decided for some particular reason that the services of the Brahmana cook in the Udbodhan house should be dispensed with. But because this would cause inconvenience to the Holy Mother, the monastic Head of the Centre did not then carry out this decision. When the matter was reported to the Mother, she remarked, ”After all, you are monks. Renunciation is your goal. Indeed, can’t you renounce a cook?”

Once a monk of the Belur Math slapped a servant for insubordination. When this news reached the ears of the Mother, she said “They are monks; they are supposed to live under trees. But, now they are having monasteries, buildings and servants. What is more, one of them has gone even to the length of beating a servant!”

Swami Brajeswarananda had gone to ask for the Mother’s permission to practise austerities in Uttarakhand. On hearing him, the Mother said. “This is the month of Kartika (October-November); all the four doors to the abode of Yama are open now. Being your mother, how can I grant you permission now?”

A certain person had committed a contemptible offence. Some people advised the Mother to inflict severe punishment on him. But the Mother said, “I am his mother. How can I do such a thing?'”

Once a devotee said to the Mother, “I am very poor, Mother. I wish to come and see you now and then, but as I am not able to bring the offerings I would like, I don’t come regularly.” On hearing this, the compassionate Mother said affectionately, “My child, don’t worry about it. Whenever you desire to see me, bring simply one myrobalan fruit:’

A certain devotee had gone to see the Mother. She asked him, “Have you been initiated by me?” The devotee replied, “Yes, Mother. But I am very much tied down to worldly life, I am unmarried, and yet I have to remain busy with many family affairs. What will happen to me, Mother?”

Saying, “Let me see,” the Mother stretched out her hand to touch the chest of the devotee, and the latter hurriedly began to unbutton his coat. After she had stretched out her hand to some extent she remarked, “You need not remove your coat. You will certainly achieve the goal, otherwise my hand would not have moved in that direction. I have given you nothing of my own, but only that which I received from the Master. If it doesn’t prove efficacious, he himself will have to come to your help.”

One day the mother of a monk proposed to the Holy Mother that her son should go Backto the worldly life, The Mother said to her, “It is a great fortune to be the mother of a monk. But people cannot give up attachment to even a brass pot; how could they then think of renouncing the world? You are his mother. Why should you worry? Though he has become a monk, he will serve you.”

Once in the course of a conversation, the Mother told a certain devotee, “The Master is really God who assumed a human body to remove the sufferings of men. He moved about just as a king walks through his city in disguise, and he left the world as soon as his identity was discovered.”

During the Mother’s last stay at Jayrambati, one day the woman cook returned at about nine in the evening and announced, “I have touched a dog.

I shall have to take a bath now.” The Mother said, ”Don’t take a bath so late in the evening. Wash your hands and feet, and change your Sari.” The cook asked, “Will it suffice?” The Mother replied, “Well, then sprinkle a little

water of the Ganges on your body.” But this suggestion could not satisfy her either. So finally the Mother said, “All right, then touch me.”

Now and then Swami Jnanananda used to prepare various kinds of dishes at Nabasan and carry them to Jayrambati. On his way some people of a certain village were surprised at the frequent visits of the Swami, and one day one of them remarked, “Ah, into what delusion he has fallen!” When Swami Jnanananda reported this to the Mother, she animatedly said, “See, my child, they are very worldly-minded people. They belong to a different class. They will again and again come to the world and go rotting in their worldly life. If at any time they are blessed by God, only then can they be liberated.”

A devotee named Rajendralal Dutta asked the Mother, “I am a Kayastha, Mother. Can I offer cooked rice to Sri Ramakrishna?” The Mother replied, “You are his child, my son. What harm can there be if you offer him cooked rice? You can do so without any hesitation.”

One day Pitambar Nath, a devotee from Dacca, was talking with the Mother, sitting on the verandah of her house at Jayrambati. The Mother was in her room and said, “My son, come into the room and speak.” The devotee said, “Mother, let me sit here in the verandah. I belong to a low caste.” At this the Mother replied, “Who says you belong to a low caste? You are my child; enter the room and take your seat.”

One day at the Udbodhan house the compassion of the Holy Mother was being discussed. Yogin-Ma, staring at the Mother, said smilingly, “The Mother, no doubt, loves us all very much, but it is not as intense as the Master’s was. What concern and love he had towards his disciples! We saw it with our own eyes. Words cannot describe it.” The Mother said, “Is it to be wondered at? He accepted only a few select disciples and that too after various kinds of testing. And towards me he has pushed a whole row of ants!”

One day while speaking about Sri Ramakrishna, the Mother said, “The Master, who was such a great renouncer, nonetheless worried about me. One day he asked me, ‘How much do you need for your pocket expenses?’ I said, ‘Five or six rupees will be enough.’ Next he asked, ‘How many chapatis do you eat in the evening?’ I felt very embarrassed and wondered how I could answer. But as he insisted on a reply, I said, ‘I eat five or six.'” One day an enraged Radhu told the Mother slightingly, “What do you know? Can you comprehend the worth of a husband?” On hearing this, the Mother laughingly remarked, “That’s true! My husband was but a naked Sadhu!”

Once in the course of a chat Swami Keshavananda said to the Mother, ”After you, Mother, no one will revere goddesses like Sasthi and Sitala.” “Why not?” said the Mother, “They are my parts.”

Another day Swami Keshavananda said to her, ”Either rectify the wrong attitudes of the people of our locality or relieve me of my urge for philanthropic work. None is there to build; they know only how to destroy.” At this the Mother replied, “The Master used to say, ‘The Malaya breeze transforms all trees with substance into sandal wood.’ Since the breeze of divine grace has come, now all trees (meaning aspirants), excepting bamboo and banana, will turn into sandal wood.”

Then someone asked her, ”Mother, your relations have enjoyed so much of your holy company, still why do they not show the least glimmer of wisdom?” The Mother replied, “They are like bamboos and silk-cotton trees. Even if they grow close to a sandal wood tree, what will it profit them? The trees must have some essence.”

Once a woman devotee asked her, ”Mother, why can’t we realize that you are the Divine Mother?” She replied, “How can everybody recognize divinity, daughter? There lay a diamond at a bathing place. Taking it as an ordinary stone, people rubbed the soles of their feet against it after their bath to remove the dry skin. One day a jeweller went there. Seeing the stone, he immediately recognized that it was a big precious diamond.”

Once as the Mother was leaving Jayrambati for Calcutta, her aunt, the mother of Uncle Surya, came to her and said, “Dear Sarada, don’t forget us, come Backsoon.” The Mother touched the floor or her room with her forehead and quoting a Sanskrit proverb, said, ”One’s mother and motherland are superior to heaven itself.”‘

Once a young male disciple of the Holy Mother very unexpectedly received a marriage proposal from the family of a distinguished, wealthy man. He was offered a large sum of money which would remove his pecuniary difficulties for almost his entire life. The young man had secured an M.A. degree and was serving as the headmaster of a school. As his mind was not altogether free from desire for enjoyments, he wanted to learn the Holy

Mother’s view on the marriage proposal. So he raised the topic before her at Jayrambati. It was May 1915. Hearing everything, the Mother said, “My son, you are doing fine. Why do you want to get burnt in the fire of worldliness? You are doing a noble work; you are helping many boys to receive education. They will turn out good by their association with you, and that will bring good to you also.” The young man said, “Mother, I do not feel quite confident, for my mind at times gets restless and rushes towards enjoyments.” At this Mother said, “You need not entertain any fear. I say, in the Kali Yuga the mental commission of a sin is no sin at all. Free your mind from all such worries. You have nothing to fear.” Ever since the devotee heard these words of assurance of the Holy Mother, he never thought of marriage, nor did he feel perturbed by monetary worries.

One morning a girl from the hostel of the Sister Nivedita Girls’ School came to see the Mother, who was doing Japa at the time. After a while the Mother asked various questions concerning the girls of the hostel as well as about a boy named Kalu, about what sights the girl saw on her way, etc. When she failed to give satisfactory answers, the Mother said to her, “Look, my, daughter, take notice of your surroundings when you move through a place. And you must also keep yourself informed of everything that happens at the place where you live; but you should not gossip about it.”

One afternoon the girls of that hostel visited the Mother. Golap-Ma approached the Mother and said, “Mother, please tell them a little about the Master.” In response the Mother said, “What shall I say further about the Master? Many important pieces of information connected with him have come out in the Kathamrita written by Master Mahasaya. Ah! How many more teachings about the Master would have been published had Master Mahasaya maintained good health! How many people would have been benefited by them! What has already been published is a priceless treasure. Could I realize then that even the casual words of the Master would be comparable to the Vedas? Just see, how beautiful was the way in which the Master taught – see how, recalling his experiences at the Haldarpukur, he used them as illustrations in his teachings! It was his nature to explain his teachings through anecdotes from everyday life.”

A devotee asked the Mother, “The Master said, ‘Those who come here (meaning those who accept Sri Ramakrishna as the spiritual ideal) will not be born again.’ Again, Swamiji said, ‘None can have liberation without being initiated into Sannyasa.’ Then what is the way for householders?” The

Mother replied, “Yes, what the Master said is true, and what Swamiji said is also true. Householders need not have external renunciation. Internal renunciation will come to them of itself. But some people need external renunciation also. Why do you fear? Surrender yourself’ to the Master and always remember that he is behind you.”

In 1910 at Jayrambati the Mother told a monk regarding spiritual practices, “Every morning and evening perform Japa and meditation with a cool brain. It is not an easy task. Compared to meditation, it is easier to till a plot of land.” Pointing to a picture of Sri Ramakrishna, she further said, “Nothing can be attained without his grace.” When the monk submitted that the work of the monastery kept one too busy to find time for regularly performing Japa and meditation, the Mother said, “Whose work are you doing? It is His work only.” She continued, saying, “In time to come, your mind itself will turn into your Guru and advise you.”

Once in the course of a conversation the Mother said, “I am the mother of the virtuous as well as the wicked.” She used to tell her disciples, “Why should you worry?”

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